I'm constantly reminded that I should never skip runs, not because I skip them, but because when I really want to skip them, and then do them anyway, they're usually some of my best.
Yesterday I had a bad day. Not for any real reason. I was really busy at work and overwhelmed, but it wasn't necessarily a bad work day. I was grouchy, tense, sad, overwhelmed, and annoyed. Part of it could have been the terrible night's sleep I'd gotten, but usually being tired doesn't make me have a day like I did yesterday. I also have felt like I'm just starting to deal with mourning the loss of my friend Dina.
When I left work it was raining a bit. Great. I really didn't want to attempt 4 1/2 miles on a treadmill. I got home to change and let myself decompress for about a half hour. I seriously didn't want to go out. All I wanted to do was climb into bed and feel sorry for myself. I just felt exhausted.
I sucked it up. I put on a hat and my running clothes and headed out. It had basically quit raining, only an occasional drop here and there. I told myself I would let myself run at a comfortable pace and just take it easy and try to enjoy it. Also, it's not a bad idea to get some rain runs under my belt because who knows what the weather will be like on my race days.
And enjoy it I did. Wow. It was an amazing run. I felt great basically the whole time. My knee bothered me a bit, I think mostly because of the rain. The Park was the most empty I think it's ever been when I've been running. It was AWESOME. I always wish for less people in the Park while I run. I always want more solitude, and last night I got it. It really was just an all around great run and I have to admit that I loved it. I found myself so happy when I was finished. I didn't feel like I was killing myself at the end, and felt like I could have run another two miles easily, which is what I'll be doing at my 10k this Saturday. These runs always come when I need them. Such a nice confidence booster. I did get intimidated thinking about how in under two weeks I've got an eight mile run and that's almost double what I ran last night, plus I'll be doing it in a new place since I'll be out of town, but I told myself to not focus on that, but how confident I'll feel after I do it.
mile 1: 9:27
mile 2: 9:24
mile 3: 9:25
mile 4: 9:38
(when there's a half mile I don't want to figure out how long it took me, the app lists it as the mile average, yet I didn't run the full mile and I don't feel like doing the math)